I want to be a beggar rather than to be a clown
And I should
One of the most struggling thing is
to endure and overcome difficult and painful situations which no one EVER will recognizes, understand, and empathizes with I emphasize 'No one ever' Even if he wrote his story in a book, no any future generation, not to mention his contemporaries, would recognize, understand, and empathizes with his situation
As the boy grew older,
His once sparkling eyes faded away Now all he's got is, expressionless face with dull eyes His vibrancy has long gone His once imaginative, malleable, out-of-box mind turned into a rock-solid fixture He doesn't laugh nor smile from the heart anymore He laughs when it's considered appropriate In other words, he laughs rationally For him, living became nothing but a habitual thing
But inside...
But inside doesn't matter (said by Patrick Bateman) Inside does matter. A LOT. But it is also funny that those who have no distinguishable inside say about inside blah blah So funny
It feels like
Multiplayer online game turns into singleplayer offline game It feels like Those other players all suddenly turns into NPCs
I hope
my philosophy converges someday (i.e. with respect to time-axis) While it is fluctuating, I don't wish to die (But if death comes before me, I'll gladly accept it) As I said, this fine old world seems not to stop spinning around... BUT I WILL CONQUER IT ALL I NEVER WISH TO DIE UNTIL I CONQUER IT ALL I'm a doomer but at the same time, very strangely, full of energy There is a light that never goes out inside me
Perhaps
A person could not be happier than just lying down, closing eyes, and daydreaming
The saddest line from Joker
"They couldn't carry a tune to save their lives" He just could have said how the wall street guys treated him, but he didn't Guess why
"Get in, get it done, get it done right, and get out."
-- Fred C. Trump At first I thought of it very lightly but it has some deeper (philosophical) meaning
Immunity to solitude
That's the most blessed characteristics which a human can have